I just received this email from my friend in Bali, who’s midwife has been nominated for the CNN Hero of the Year award. I just love when things like this hit so close to home. I love that there are people out there living a life of service, devoted day in and day out to bettering the lives of others. A true inspiration for all, especially us women.
I never do this, but if you have a moment to vote it would be greatly appreciated :) Check out the video link & email from my friend below!
Lotsa love - TP
I just got home from having lunch with our midwife, Robin Lim, who is also nominated for CNN Hero or the Year award for the amazing work she has done here in Indonesia and globally for the education she has provided regarding Gentle Birth, Breastfeeding, Lotus Birth, etc. She started a Birthing Center and Clinic named Bumi Sehat here in Ubud as well as another clinic in Aceh, Indonesia (in response to the devastating earthquake in 2004) to provide an free option for the hundreds/thousands of women that need it. She has delivered thousands of babies and saved hundreds of lives by giving women a viable option to come and have their babies under care and supervision of midwives and volunteers. According to Robin, 961 women die everyday in or from childbirth because they are not getting or can’t afford proper care. Here in Indonesia, if a woman deliveries her baby in a hospital and can’t afford to pay the bill ($70 for natural birth and $700 for cesarian), she cannot remove her baby from the hospital until she can pay the bill and while the baby is there, the mother is allowed in twice a day at 8am and 8pm to feed and change her baby! Can you even imagine? Since the average income in Indonesia is $80/month, there are a lot of babies suffering in the hospitals while the parents try to find the money to get them out. Robin and Bumi Sehat provides a free place for women to come and have their babies, under the best care and supervision. The Clinic is run completely on donations from people like you and I. Because of the amazing work that she has done, CNN has nominated Robin one of the CNN Heros of the Year. If she wins, she will be granted $250,000 which will go to building a much needed new clinic, supporting the clinics and staff, supplying things like pre-natal vitamins to the hundreds of women that survive on white rice alone, and start funds to open more clinics like the 2 existing ones. The clinic also provides pre and post natal care, childrens clinic, acupuncture, nutrition support, breastfeeding support as well as jobs for those in the community. Just visiting this clinic helps to put things in perspective. Of course this cause is very close to my heart, especially in the days before my own birth experience. I feel so blessed and honored to be having a baby with the guidance of such an amazing woman and hero. She lives everyday (and night) of her life in service. Please, I beg you, to take a few minutes everyday to vote for Robin. Please spread the word. You can vote up to 10 times a day and every single vote gets her closer to being able to help thousands of women, children and babies. If you want to even go one step further, donate to the clinic. Every dollar counts. To Vote: http://heroes.cnn.com/vote_en.aspx To learn more about Bumi Sehat and Robin: http://www.bumisehatbali.org/
I want to beg you, as much as I can, to be patient toward all that is unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign tongue.
Do not seek the answers, which cannot be given to you because you would not be able to live them.
And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.
Once upon a time I got really clear on what I wanted...
And BOOM! Dreams on a platter. Take your pick.
My friend suggested a month ago, that I make a list of all the qualities I want in my perfect partner. And to get really specific. So I did. And then the next day, out of nowhere, I ran into an old friend. I kind of laughed at how perfect he seemed, according to my list. I even said to him, “Wow, I wasn’t expecting you so soon!” He seemed fitting, until I got the impression that he might give me a baby tomorrow. So I went back to my list, and made a couple edits. “Want’s a family: Not tomorrow.” Its partly my fault, cause I have wanted a kid since 24, and I have a tendancy to rush in to things…especially in this new found place of wide-eyed wonderment. I cant help but try people on and dream big. This often gets mistaken for leading someone on…so I’m learning how to take it slow, for the sake of myself and others.
Everyday, I learn something new about myself.
I am enjoying observing how different people’s energy can stir up, awaken, and unlock all sorts of feelings, emotions & energy within me. There was one person recently, who just annoyed the shit out of me. They would talk and I would instantly get annoyed. Since we are all reflections of each other, I started looking within. What about them is annoying me? When was there a time in my life when I could totally relate to that behavior? Talk about releasing and letting go. Its like once I can remember, ‘Oh yeah, I was totally sucked into this and preaching that…’ Once I can own it, I can fully release it, and then I can really see someone for who they are, and I can fully love & support them.
This month has been a series of many beautiful days in a row, of release, let go & awaken.
The other morning I had this full on epiphany. I have been hoarding all this LOVE I have cultivated within me…I MUST GIVE IT AWAY!!!! ASAP!!!!!!!!!
My friend said to me, “T, you seem like you would be a really hard girl to date, you don’t need anything from anyone…” FML. I never thought about that. I always thought my independence, my freedom, having my own life going on, was a turn on. And I think it is to some degree, but I imagine its also intimidating. I realized I had gotten so good at being on my own, that I started to never lean on anyone. I would give a little here and there, enough to lure someone in, but I would still keep a lot of my awesome for myself. I realized I might be the most closed off, open person I know. I totally started alienating myself.
I came to the conclusion, that its just a result of fear. This kind of, ‘Well if I just get good at taking care of myself, I can build myself a little castle, and no one will ever be able to take it away. If I never let anyone in, they can never break my heart. If I never reach out to anyone, I will never be dissapointed.’ WRONG! This is not loving full out! Back to the drawing board…
I thought to myself, this is not the TP I know. The TP I know, lives to learn, and learns to love, and wants to know about it all…(Yes, I might have just took that line from one of my song lyrics..but so true.) The TP I know wears her heart on her sleeve. She loves full out, and isn’t attached. The TP I know is spastic and elated with everyone she meets. She is childlike and curious, and in the flow. Im so glad I reminded myself.
Yes, I got a little unbalanced. But I’m finding my way back to the center. Realizing it’s ok to lean, it’s ok to let someone do something nice for you, it’s ok to let a guy worship you and call you a goddess, it’s ok to OPEN up!!!! It’s ok to be weird and funny and 100% totally transparent and authentic and just be you in all your YOU-ness! And its important to honor the divine within you and know that you are WORTHY of all of it. You are a QUEEN. You are a KING. At the end of the day, you know that your happiness comes from within, and no one can sway or alter it.
How amazing is it to be you? How amazing is it to feel so grounded in your self love, that you can fully open up to all the elements and see everyone & everything that comes in & out of your life, as a big beautiful blessing? How amazing to let your love breathe deep as your breath, and flow as free as the tide.
I know for me, I am the most happy when I just throw all the details out the window and laugh my ass off.
So back to the list. I had made many lists revolving around the perfect partner, love relationship, etc… but I had never made a list for anything career, album, music related. I had always left that department of life an open book of whatever happens, happens. But a couple weeks ago, I heard this loud voice in my head say, “Make the list…” So I did.
I started with now, then tomorrow, next week, the upcoming months, the next year. My 3rd album, the songs, the producer, the production, the process, even how I wanted to feel making this next record. The sequence, the artwork, the colors, the message. Then I went into touring; shows, merchandise, venues, my band. Then promotion, TV, radio, traveling, the opportunities that would come my way, books, and fashion, jewelry. The level of success, the albums sold, and what it would allow me the freedom to do in the future. My gratitude, my rapport with my fans, my simple life. I listed everything, and the more I started listing, the more I couldn’t stop. I went nuts. I basically wrote out my future, according to me. And then I handed it over to the Universe.
A week later, my dream producer wrote, saying he really wanted to do the record. But not till November. I was a little bit disappointed, because I was so fired up. And then I read something that went like this:
"First you have to know what you want, defined in terms of the end result. And then you have to physically move towards it, without defining the hows. At which point, the thing you want actually starts coming to you, on its own terms, from a direction completely unexpected. Just carry on, detached from the details and timing, and perhaps act like you couldn’t care less."
And then I remembered how I’m getting my dog in a couple weeks, and this extra time at home to just be with her, train her, love her and pick up her poop, will be glorious. I also really wanted to do this yoga teacher training that was coming up, and now I wont have to do it in bits and pieces.
In a nutshell, the delay till November will allow me to do everything I really want to do. Who says you can’t have it all? Only you can tell yourself that.
Plus, this new window has provided a little more canvas to dream up some more magic: A tour perhaps, supporting some rad artist, just for the fun of it. Of course I also have to trust that there must be some songs not written, and that I’m gonna need till November to get them out.
It’s amazing what happens when you get out of your own way.
My friend read me an excerpt from this book, SynchroDestiny by Deepak Chopra, yesterday. I cant remember what it said exactly but it went something like this: Gravity is always there. We don’t have to believe it is working, it just is. The same goes for our intention. Its always there, working in our favor, so long as we get clear on what it is we want.
Cheers to getting clear. Dream big my friends. You can have it all. It can be easy. Its meant to be fun. You just got to choose it, and then set it free.
With my hands in the air! Giving you a big heyooo!!!
“Take someone who doesn’t keep score, who’s not looking to be richer, or afraid of losing, who has not the slightest interest even in his own personality: he’s free.”—FURUZANFAR #116 - THE RUMI COLLECTION