As I was reading Tricia’s blog, about nodding whole bodily while watching Brene Brown’s TED talk, I found that I was nodding full bodily at Tricias blog (which almost always happens anyways), especially the part where she says;
I am being completely vulnerable by exposing my very human brain and the ugliness that shows up and then how I joyologize myself with my tools. I want to be clear that I am in no way perfect, but I am conscious of my thoughts, speech, actions, beliefs and attitudes and I fully accept every part of myself.
This is one of my favorite things about Tricia, shes always putting herself out there. Always working on herself, always giving back so much to those around her. Always having breakthrough’s, always encouraging others. Shes the first one I call, when I am feeling down. She has that magic about her, that can turn any frown upside down. At the same time, she sometimes does this by inviting you to lean into the discomfort. Shes the one that encourages you to be vulnerable.
As far as vulnerability goes, its not easy. But I have to admit, I do love it. I mean I must right? I play music for a living, on stage, in front of an audience, for the whole world to see. If anything, being vulnerable has taught me more about myself than any other situation I could get myself into. Its taught me how to be a strong, be humble. Let the shit others think, roll off my back. Its taught me how to embrace myself, and acknowledge others. Being vulnerable has opened me up, more than I will ever know. And for that I am ever thankful.
2011 has proved to be an active year, and we are only 4 weeks in!
I am one active camper.
Luckily, the one area where my ring doesn’t get in the way? Playing guitar.
I haven’t posted a photo of its magicalness because I feel like my ear to ear grin and its beauty go hand in hand, its something only best experienced in person.
Either way, I hate to take if off. But, I surfed my way into the new year which meant learning how to use the hotel safe for the first time, and remembering to leave it at home when I went to the beach, or put it on a near and dear friends hand before a paddle out. Either way, its always safe, its always sound and its always blowing my mind.
Its pretty amazing, after all I have been through with this man, this love of my life, this best friend, this human, this divine creation….mmmmm….. we have come together, once again. The fact that I get be his side kick and him mine, for the rest of our lives, is the best thing ever.
I remember this one time, after we had broken up, and were rekindling our friendship, Jason said to me, “..one day our kids will surf together, they will totally grow up together…” I thought to myself. “Duh, our kids will be our kids, of course they will grow up together!”
I always knew. From the the moment I met him. I knew. Literally. The first time I ever saw him, I leaned over to my manager at the time, and said, “Im gonna marry that dude.” My manager of course heard me say that about many different guys, throughout the week, but something in me, at the moment, knew that something was different. I knew. Indefinitely. And over the years, even when I didn’t want to know, I still knew. He was always there, in the back of my mind.
In the course of our getting back together, I ran into a friend of mine, who had gone through a similar situation. She was now married to her sweetheart, with a daughter and another baby on the way. She said to me, “Is this the one? Deep in there, you know…” I said, “Yes, he is” She said, “Then you go and you get him and you fight for him, if he is the one, that is what you do, that is what LOVE does.” And so I did. And now…WOW. I am so glad I took that risk and I sucked up my pride, and went after my hearts mate.
I always dreamed about this love, part of me never thought I would find it, or that maybe it only existed in Disney movies. Its amazing how life twists and turns, you never know how it might show up. I am so thankful for the break up and the pain, and the lessons and the hurt, and the other lovers and experiences. The passion and spontaneity of it all. Every step of the way, makes this love the most beautiful creation i have ever participated in. It wouldn’t be so good, without all the fucked up bits. It wouldn’t be so good, without the ooey gooey lovey dovey bits. I am thankful. Grateful. Blessed, for all of it. I wouldn’t take any of it back. Its all so perfect.
I want to share this love with the world, so that everyone knows this love. This love is out there waiting for you. Deserving of you. Worthy of you. Specially and specifically designed for you. Are you ready for this love? Its ready for you.
Think of this love, like the love you feel from the one thing you enjoy the most. For me, in this moment, its surfing. Surfing is love. I love to surf. I love the ocean. The big blue. The mama O. The all encompassing, 360 degrees of energy that is hugging and tugging from every angle. Mmmm Mmmm Mmmm.
My love is like surfing. Easy, patient, challenging, rewarding, exhilarating, glassy, and full of warm, golden light.
Many years ago my astrologist told me this was my life to enjoy. That I had settled all my business in my past lives. That this was the life, where I carried nothing over. This life was to just enjoy. To live it up. To do what made me happy. To be love and be loved. I am thinking she was right. I am truly loving life. Loving all the people in my life. Loving the energy that surrounds me. Loving you, and your love. Your light. Your amazingness. Your creativity. Your brilliance! YOU’RE BRILLIANT!!!! I am just overjoyed and loving every minute of it.
I finally get it, that things I enjoy the most, are the simple things. Pure food that comes from the earth. The waves that roll in across the deep blue. A simple kiss off the lips of the ones I adore. The sunshine. The breeze. The birds, the animals. The song, and the sound. The rhythm. The heartbeat of the world, exist in all of us, and boy do I feel connected.
I find as I get older, I worry less, I complain less. I talk less shit. Somedays my ego gets real confused, and starts heading down the wrong road, but I switch the path like a railroad track, and head that train back towards love.
Speaking of love, one of my favorite quotes on love, comes from the magnificent Martin Luther King, whom on this day we honor and celebrate. This is one of my favorite MLK quotes :
Hatred paralyzes life; love releases it. Hatred confuses life; love harmonizes it. Hatred darkens life; love illuminates it
Love is where its at ya’ll.
Well for me, Love and surfing :)
I love you, like wayyy mucho! If you ever need some love, you just holler! Ok?
Ok. Muah! <3
PS..thanks to my super hot fiance for being so dang radical with the water camera!
Have you ever dived into that question? (Even just typing the title, I said to myself ‘Oh & who do you think you are all Ms. High ‘n mighty on your happy cloud?!”)
Really though, can you answer it? Can you get over the fact that it might sound conceited? Or that someone might judge you? Or talk about you behind your back? Or think your full of yourself? Oooh! Or they might make up a story about you? Or, even better, you might make up a story about yourself? Do you ever find yourself hiding your awesomeness? Almost feeling a bit guilty? Maybe you are having a really good day, but you almost feel compelled NOT to share, because you don’t want to piss off anyone else who might NOT be having as great of a day as you? You wouldnt want to rub it in…
Well you know what? Today is not that day. Today is the day we share why it is so RAD to be us! And we let those people with opinions, have their opinions, cause those opinions don’t belong to us. So whateverrrr….ramalangadingdong.
Today friends, I challenge you to write a blog or a sentence, a short story, an illustration, anything really..telling the world: WHAT IS SO FLIPPPIN’ GREAT ABOUT BEING YOU?
Lately, I’ve seen so much negative energy floating around. Words filled with hate, with nonsense really. Fear. People wasting THEIR OWN TIME. Putting nothing but crap filled poop into the universe. Well I say, ENOUGH! We haven’t got time for those shenanigans!
We need to turn this town upside down, and start getting into the habit of expressing the highest vibration of our wonderful selves. Be proud of what we are accomplishing, be proud of who we are growing into. Be proud you took a vacation, be proud of your ex who is getting married. Be excited you got laid! Just let it out!!!!!! Let it out what excites you, and motivates you and makes you want to scream it from the top of the mountain. From this we learn how to love, listen and support community. In doing this, we move past the stories we make up, and we get the chance to just be…AWESOME!!!(<—- I LOVE THAT WORD! Its so 80’s side ponytail.)
So, you ask: What’s so great about being me?
It changes everyday, but today. It is pretty awesome to be Tristan Prettyman because these drawings came in the mail from my super friends, Meredith & her sister Whitney:
Seriously, I think they speak for themselves. But today, I am like, “Wow its pretty rad to know I can stoke these girls out! To know that by taking a little time, sending an autograph and some music, totally sets a wave of love into motion”
YES PLEASE!! SIGN ME UP!!!
Ive always been pretty good about wring people back, I love staying connected! I cant wait to write Meredith back, she has a lot of very important questions for me!
Its also pretty awesome to be me today, cause I just worked out and now Im feeling SUPER HYPER! Im feeling sexy and fit, and ON FIRE! I got nothing but love and I’m sending it your way! Im SO excited for YOU! To tell ME! What is so great about being YOU! (Arent you excited?)
This is also such a great exercise to help you get over, spending any amount of energy worrying what people think about you! -Which is partly why I am writing this, cause I do tend to get my feelings hurt, when I read a negative comment on twitter, or a mean comment. I start to feel guilty for sharing, all the ongoing wonderful news in my life, in fear that people are gonna get turned off or something. I know those negative fueled comments, (which are like 1 in 500) have nothing to do with me anyways, its just someone working their shit out. But sometimes, I get hung up on it. Oh Ego…you are always trying to steal the spotlight…Bah!
Good thing I enjoy being a student of life, and an awesome one at that.
Im still learning, after 28 years, to just let it go, and give it to the birds…and get on with my awesome day.