And then, while googling to find the perfect word, opposite of the word “magnify”, I lost my post. Bahh…
But you know what, these things happen. The universe switched it up on me. Im alright with that. And I just renamed my blog something about a Nashtache. I think im on to something!
I didnt want to write a long blog anyhow, but man, it was shaping up to be a good one. Oh well….
At any rate, March might be “The Best Month Ever”
Ive had one hell of a March.
Rather than being exhausted, I am feeling filled to the brim with love, energy, inspiration, smiles, hugs, laughter and excitment. Doing whatever, wherever, however…cause you know what? It doesnt matter!!!!! None of it. Nada.
Im back in Nashville for some more songwriting. I had a hard time leaving home, I felt like a mouse stuck in one of those sticky traps. Home likes to wrap itself around me and love me up…and the sun has been basking me a darker shade of tan. My friend just had her baby, the waves have been good. The light has shifted, we gained an hour. Hard to leave indeed, but I do, times two, appreciate the travel, the experience, and this opportunity which life has granted me.
I have quite the collection of songs brewing. I’m kind of in “Awe” as to how I have aquired them. Seems like a couple months ago I was blank. No inspiration, no drive, no feeling, no excitement. But now…SHizaaa MInelli. I am back. And, I am fired up. All i did was go about what I wanted to be doing, surfing, yogaing, cooking, smokin.. weeeee!, painting, cleaning, hanging with my mom, laughing a whole lot, dusting off my awsomesness and shazamm…I wrote a bunch of songs in there somewhere. I love when that happens.
Makes me happy too, cause that means they are au naturale. I didnt even feel it. They just came. “Poof! Hi, Im a song, im looking for TP, is that you? Sign here please _____xx”
Ive taken a lot of random photos to document the most awesome March of my life.
Hope you enjoy the photos, as much as i enjoyed capturing them :)
This may be one of the first songs Ive ever written that has no men/relationship/feelings of emotions tied to love and men, etc… as the inspiration behind it (maybe I’m growing up finally!!!!!…boringgggg).
This song is all about recognizing the beauty and potential in this world. And preserving it for our future generations to come. Change is as easy as having a thought. All you have to do is start.
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”—
Our Deepest Fear
by Marianne Williamsonfrom A Return To Love: Reflections on the Principles of A Course in Miracles
Today I woke up, made my usual oatmeal and drank some delicious coffee, sat down at the computer to read The Huffington Post as usual, and then I paused. I started to think about what I actually HAD to do today - there wasn’t really much I could think of. Last week I was busy as hell and this week…
“In my world, this is one of the highly anticipated albums of 2010
James Mercer (The Shins) and Brian Burton AKA: Danger Mouse (of Gnarls Barkley) have come together to make magic.
You can preview it now for a limited time :)
Its so good!
Well more like afternoon, if you are on the East coast, or beyond!
A couple weeks ago, I posted a photo of a delicious doughnut.
The recipe came from one of my favorite books: Vegan Yum Yum by Lauren Ulm.
A lot of people asked for the recipe, so I reached out to Lauren (gotta love the power of twitter) to see if she would be ok with me posting the recipe from her new cook book!
She gave me a thumbs up!
***Just a note: You are gonna need a ungreased/nonstick doughnut pan! A mini or a regular pan. You can order one off Amazon.com
Miniature Baked Doughnuts
*Makes 20 mini doughnuts or 6 regular sized doughnuts (maybe a couple more).
1 doughnut pan
1 cup all-purpose flour (You can sub. Brown Rice flour or a Gluten Free baking blend, but I prefer the regular flour)
1/2 cup sugar (or agave)
1 1/2 teaspoons baking powder
1/3 teaspoon of salt
1/4 teaspoon (scant) nutmet
1 tiny pinch(or shake) of cinnamon
1/2 cup soymilk (or hemp milk)
1/2 teaspoon apple cider vinegar
1/2 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
Egg substitute for 1 egg
4 Tablespoons Earth Balance margarine
Step 1: Preheat the oven to 350 Degrees Farenheit.
Step 2: In a large bowl, combine the flour, sugar, baking powder, salt, nutmeg, and cinnamon with a whisk to mix thoroughly.
Step 3: Combine the soymilk, apple cider vinegar, vanilla exract, egg substitute, and margarine in a small saucepan over medium-low heat and mix until the margarine is melted. This mixture should not get too hot; you should be able to stick your finger in the mixture and feel slightly warm. If you burn yourself; (1) it’s not my fault! and (2) it’s too hot for the dough.
Step 4: Add the wet ingredients to the dry ingerdients and mix until just combined. It should form a very soft dough or thick batter.
Step 5: Using a tablespoon measure, scoop out the dough into the ungreased, nonstick, doughnut pan. Smooth out the top of the doughnuts with your fingers, clearing off the post in the middle of each one. This will make for more even, prettier doughnuts, but isnt crucial. If you overfill, your doughnuts will come out looking like they have muffin tops. While not the end of the world, its not very doughnut-like either.
Step 6: Bake for 12 minutes until the doughnuts are almost browned on top and a toothpick comes out clean. Invert the hot pan over a cutting board or cooling rack to release the doughnuts. Allow to cool completely before decorating (unless your making powdered sugar doughnuts; see instructions below). If you let them cool loosely covered with plastic wrap, the donuts with stay soft and fluffy.
Chocolate-dipped Doughnuts: This is the easy part. Melt 1 part of your favorite dark chocolate in the microwave. Remove from the microwave and stir every 15 seconds until chocolate is smooth and barely warm to the touch. I should mention that you should be very careful not to get any water in the chocolate or it could seize up, and no one likes that! Dip your doughnuts one by one into the chocolate, then place on a wire rack and sprinkle with sprinkles.
Glazed Doughnuts with Sprinkles: Whisk together 1/2 cup lump free powdered sugar with 1 Tablespoon of soy milk. Dip the “bottom” half of the doughnut (the side with the nicer shape) into the glaze, let some drip off, then dip glazed side down onto the bowlful of sprinkles (1/4 to 1/2 cup). Transfer to a wire rack that has been set on top of some parchment paper (or wax paper). The excess glaze will drip through the rack onto the paper for easy cleanup later.
Powdered Sugar Doughnuts: While doughnuts are still warm from the oven, roll them in a bowl of powdered sugar.
Striped Doughnuts: Dip doughnuts into the powdered sugar glaze (see glazed doughnuts above for glaze recipe), then drizzle with melted chocolate.
Thank you to Lauren Ulm for letting me post this recipe! You rock girl! You make “Vegan” tasty, fun and delicious
Check out her blog and more info on how to order her cook book at
All day, super high, like a bird with no landing zone in site.
I didnt want to land anyhow, so that worked out well, didnt it?
Another transition is in the works, another test of patience, a confrontation of fears, a personal challenge to myself, to ulitmately be inspired and take to heart everything that continues to unfold around me.
Ive had a lot of my mind as of late. Ive had so much time off, its a little strange to get back into music mode. But its calling my name and my heart is in it. I have been traveling all over to write with amazing people, I have been cooking a ton, and writing in the kitchen, writing by the fire, on the back patio. I have been reading old journals, old lover letters, and old books. Ive been listening to my parents old records. Inspired and thirsty to soak up every little thing around me. I want all the info baby. Enlighten me!
I recently started dating someone, but after a lot of thought, despite how amazing they are, and will always be, I decided that It was best for me to be on my own at this point in time. When I came to this realization, it was bit scary. Changing the dynamic in any relationship is tricky. Especially when you are requesting that it take 10 steps backwards. But I had to honor my self, and follow my heart. I knew this was going to be hard. 1. Because this other person is really fantastic. 2. I usually try to avoid confrontation at all costs. 3.(in regards to 2.) In the past, my delivery of letting someone down tends to be harsh, blunt and not very thoughtful because I to just want to say what I have to say and get it over with. And 4, Ive now realized I have created a challenge, within a challenge, for myself. I hate this kind of “talk”.
But, I have learned, you cant just treat people like disposable silverware. Its not good for you, or them, or the enviornment. So I checked in with myself to make sure this was the choice I really wanted to make, and to be mindful and thoughtful when explaining to this other person how I felt. To be honest, to be open, and most importantly to listen.
Everything went as smooth as it could have gone, I hope one day we will be able to go back to being friends, for this person is kind, amazing, smart, funny, lovely and loving. I do believe that timing is everything. And, I do belive that in my heart, I have made the right decision for the time being, regardless of how much it might suck.
A few hours later, I was drawn to my Runes…This tends to happen, when change is in the air.
The runes I use “serve the Spiritual Warrior, the one whose quest is doing battle with the self, the whose goal is self-change.”
The Runes I use dont predict the future, or tell you what to do next. They are meant to “point your attention towards those hidden fears and motivations that will shape your future by their unfelt presence within each present moment.”
I reached into the little grey felt bag, swirled my fingers around, and pulled out a Rune.
A blank one. How Appropriate.
"Blank is the end, blank the beginning. This is the Rune of total trust and should be taken as exciting evidence of your most immediate contact with your own true destiny which, time and again, rises like the phoenix from the ashes of what we call fate."
"Here the Unknowable informs you that it is in motion in your life. In that blankness is held undiluted potential. At the same time both pregnant and empty, this Rune comprehends the totality of being, all that is to be actualized."
"The Blank rune often calls for no less an act of courage than an empty-handed leap into the void. Drawing it is a direct test of faith."
"The Unknowable represents the path of karma-the sum total of your actions and their consequences, the lessons that are yours for this lifetime. And yet this Rune teaches that the very debts of old karma shift and evolve as you shift and evolve. Nothing is predestined: What beckons is the creative power of the unknown."
"Whenever you draw The Blank Rune, take heart: Know that the work of self-change is progressing in your life."
A friend of mine passed this along to me yesterday, so I am passing it along to you today:)
On the surface of the world right now there is war and Violence and things seem dark But calmly and quietly, at the same time, something else is happening underground An inner revolution is taking place and certain individuals are being called to a higher light It is a silent revolution From the inside out From the ground up
You won’t see us on the T.V. You won’t read about us in the newspaper You won’t hear about us on the radio
We don’t seek any glory We don’t wear any uniform We come in all shapes and sizes Colors and styles
Most of us work anonymously We are quietly working behind the scenes in every country and culture of the world Cities big and small, mountains and valleys, in farms and villages, tribes and remote islands
You could pass by one of us on the street and not even notice We go undercover We remain behind the scenes It is of no concern to us who takes the final credit But simply that the work gets done
Occasionally we spot each other in the street We give a quiet nod and continue on our way so no one will notice.
During the day many of us pretend we have normal jobs But behind the false storefront, at night is where the real work takes place
Some call us the ‘Conscious Army’ We are slowly creating a new world with the power of our minds and hearts We follow, with passion and joy Our orders from the Central Command The Spiritual Intelligence Agency
We are dropping soft, secret love bombs when no one is looking: Poems Hugs Music Photography Movies Kind words Smiles Meditation and prayer Dance Social activism Blogs Random acts of kindness
Our work is slow and meticulous Like the formation of mountains It is not even visible at first glance And yet with it entire tectonic plates shall be moved in the centuries to come
Love is the new religion of the 21st century
You don’t have to be a highly educated person Or have any exceptional knowledge to understand it It comes from the intelligence of the heart Embedded in the timeless evolutionary pulse of all human beings
Be the change you want to see in the world Nobody else can do it for you
We are now recruiting Perhaps you will join us Or already have. All are welcome… The door is open
I wrote a super duper sweet song with *Dave Barnes, he might truly be one of the most funniest people I’ve ever met. I had such an amazing time working with him. I also got to catch up with my old San Diego neighbor **Molly Jenson. She recently moved to Nashville, a couple months ago. I cant begin to tell you the importance of having a great group of girlfriends, especially spread out across the world. We talked, laughed, enjoyed dinner, drank wine and the next thing we knew, Robert Plant appeared right next to us. We didn’t even notice, we were having such a good time, until our waiter walked by and dropped a little note in front of us that read, “You’re sharing the bar with Robert Plant (Don’t freak out!)” :)
I was too speechless to freak out. I mean, what do you even say to Robert Plant? “Hi, I like your music!” or “Hi, that record ***Raising Sand that you did with Alison Krauss was amazing!” or “Hi, Led Zepplin is dope!” I couldn’t say anything to him, I just kept thinking, “Holy shit, that voice, the voice so many people have become obsessed, amazed, and fallen in love with…comes out of that man, sitting, right here!” Just another Monday night. Sigh.
Nashville is a great place, a funny place. Everyone is in the music biz. When the guy at Fido asked me what “Im with the Band, Inc.” stood for on my credit card, I replied, “Oh, I play music.” And then I kinda laughed a little. “Of coarse I do..dont you?”
My sessions went well. They were highly enjoyable and inspirational, even if I did only write one song. After I wrote with Dave, I got together with Brendan Benson. I always dug his solo stuff, and he later went on to join The Racounteurs. Its definitely is a real treat when you get to work with any accomplished musician. We didn’t get anything done. Not for lack of trying! Its just that nothing was coming, you cant point a wand and be like “Abracadabra!”, and a song is born! So instead, we chatted, and we went to dinner, and we talked. And it made me realize that as much as gal pals are important, so are guy friends. Thanks Brendan for listening to all my nonsense! ****
What else, I didn’t make it the ‘Pancake Pantry’, but I did drive by it and snap a photo.
Maybe next time!
I do know, however, the vegan pumpkin muffin at Fido is delicious! The Whole Foods is also fantastic. I could live at Wholefoods. I get turned on the second I round the corner towards the salad bar. Im a sucker for fresh produce. And since my boyfriend thinks he is french (I swear he lives off of coffee, bread, cheese, meat, salad and wine…in that order!) It was nice to just eat light and cleanse a bit. I also got to visit 2 stores that were recommended by my pal Jessie Baylin. H. Audrey and Imogene & Willie. Both super cool clothing stores, with great one of a kind finds. Rhett at H. Aubrey was so sweet and helpful and had even bought my record! The guys over at Imogene & Willie were great as well, super helpful and nice. Even Greg, the bartender at the hotel where I was staying, was crackin me up. He tagged me “Tristan from San Diego, with the boots and the bangs”, within the first 5 minutes of sitting down at the bar. In fact, I dont think I met a single cold soul while I was in Nashville! Everyone is so dang nice! I could definitely record my next record here :)
I am now headed back home, I will continue to write into the weekend. Sunday is Valentines day! And ladies, don’t forget, Valentines day isn’t just for the ladies, its for the gentleman too, so don’t forget to get your man something special! My boyfriend pointed that out to me, right after he told me he didn’t believe in Valentines Day! I gave him a puzzled look, to which he responded, “Why make a point to do nice things on the one designated day of the year, when you can do those things all year round?’
Spoken, like a true gentleman.
Im a lucky lady.
Hands to Hands
Knees to Knees
Eyes to Eyes
Cheers to love, that’s as “Simple as it should be…”
*Check out Dave Barnes music here **Molly Jensen has the voice of an angel. You can listen to it here ***Raising Sand won 5 Grammy’s last year including Record of the Year, check it here. ****Brendan Benson is currently on tour supporting his latest record, you can check it out here
Last night, I rented ‘It Might Get Loud’ from iTunes and watched it before I went to bed. I’ve been wanting to check it out for a while now, and was jealous my boyfriend, and a bunch of our friends, got to see it the night before.
It is fabulous! Even if you are not a guitar freak, its really interesting to see the different approaches that Jack White, Jimmy Page and The Edge have when it comes to guitar. They even go as far as to discuss sounds, techniques and discuss their own personl views on music, personally and proffesionally. Plus you get to hear some of their greatest hits, stripped down and in the raw. I really dug this film. A definite “YES!” for any music lover :)
And now, Im gonna go play my electric!
For more info and to check out the movie click here
Sometimes my mind replays things that just happened, from the inside out.
For instance, I just got up to use the restroom and as I was peeing, I began to reflect. I thought to myself, sure I am just peeing. But, if you took down the walls of the bathroom, there would be pilots to my left, a galley with stewardess to my front, 29 rows deep of passengers on their way to houston, to my right, and behind me, open skies. If you zoomed out. There I would be, in a plane flying high above the ground, peeing at a cruising altitude of 30,000 feet!
I am headed to Nashville for a little co-writing. Ive had a year off, maybe more. All I know is that its been awhile. Its a little scary getting back into the swing of things, but overall I am excited. While in Nashville, I will be writing with another artist; Dave Barnes and also singer/songriter and 1/2 front man of the Racounteurs, Brendan Benson. I am pretty excited. I have signed on to make another record with Virgin. The same label that put out my last 2 records. This will be my 3rd record with them. If you would have told me 10 years ago, I would have 4 albums recorded by now (*there was the 7 song Love Ep before the last 2) I would have said, ‘shut the front door!’ Intimidated, more than anything. But here we are. 2010. Record #3. And yes, Im excited!
I was against co-writing for a long time. I didnt like the idea of singing someone elses ideas. My songs are so personal, so specific to people, moments, emotions…The only way I would ever write a song with someone, was if it was a duet that happened naturally and organically. I always viewed co-writing as this lazy approach to songwriting. The easy way out. I always thought to myself, ‘Im a singer-songwriting dammit, I should be able to write my own darn song!’ Some artists out there, work with song writing teams that are made up of 2-3, sometimes 5 people! That seems insane to me. Some people get picked up my labels because they can sing, they look hot, and they fit the role. The record label sends a memo out, writers turn in songs, the artist and label sift through the songs, narrow it down to 10-12 songs, the artist cuts the tracks. and voila, a new artist is born and a new album is made! Personally, I feel like I have too much to say, I feel like I feel too much. I have to let it, and most of the time the music is where it finds a home.
I wrote the ‘Love Ep’ and my first record ‘Twentythree’ all on my own. I am so proud of those 2 records. But most of those songs were a collection of songs that had been written between the ages of 15 and 20. Days when writing was my escape from highschool, my way of venting. Continuously trading math homework for my guitar and a pen and paper. My mind was more naive then, and I didnt think so much. Music wasnt my career, it wasnt even in my mind to be a career. It was like a mad addiction. I couldnt get anything done, until I emptied my head onto pages and pages. Nowadays, Music is my career. Im an adult now(though hopefully Ill never have to full grow up!). I think a lot, my thoughts and feelings and reasonings are a mile a minute, all over the place. But at the same time, I don’t really get worked up about a lot these days. What might fire up some people, I usually am quick to make peace with and dismiss. I don’t like to cause a scene, draw attention, or make a big deal about things. I can see as of late how this affects my writing. I don’t want to ever come off like im complaining, yet I don’t want to be to preachy and peachy. It seems like for every statement made, someone, somewhere might show up to challenge you. There are 2 sides to everything. Everyones got their own opinion. Its all relative. And these days with the amount of communication mediums and access that we have to others, its easier than ever now to point out, counter argue, or correct people. Its hard to want to speak up when you gotta make sure to get all your facts straight, and make sure it is in a way, that people arent gonna get the wrong idea. Its easy for things to get misconstrued over text.
Nonetheless, my approach to life is still with patience, a sense of humor, a loving heart and an open mind. And I guess i’m still trying to find my footing when it comes to encorporating that into my music.
My first Co-write was with Kevin Griffin of the band Better Than Ezra. He co-wrote ‘Collide’ with Howie Day. Howie and I did a lot of touring back in the day, and it was then I realized that co-writing didnt have to translate into fake, cheesy pop music crafted by teams of songwrites. As an artist you could still keep your integrity, and write great songs from the heart. I learned a lot from that first session with Kevin. He wasnt there to tell me what to sing, or how to sing it. How to write my songs or what to write about, it wasnt about any of that. It was really more about taking what I do and making it the best it could be. It was really interesting to get to see someone else’s approach to writing a song. Up and until then, I had only know my own. Nowadays, I view co-writing as a wonderful learning experience and an opportunity to work with some amazing musicians and writers. Two people joining forces, to get creative and make something beautiful.
Because I never went to college, music is my college. Its my full time job. Living, Breathing, Loving. Traveling, writing, composing. Its a full on, non-stop commitment. Ive realized its quite easy to get lazy, take the back seat and have this attitude of, ‘Ehh…it’ll happen when it happens.’ But, how inspiring is that?
My goal is to stay true to my dream. To show up for it everyday. To do the best I can. To nourish my heart, care for my voice, and to constantly keep learning, and excercising my mind. After all, this is what I do for a living. And Im quite lucky.
Speaking of luck, my airport experience this morning was just that. I arrived a little late, and got held up in security. When I got to the gate, I had barely made it. The ticket agent said, we gave your (window) seat away because you werent here when we started boarding. She printed me a new ticket, with a new seat. (A middle seat! Booo!) I didnt make too much of a fuss about it, it was my fault for being late. The flight was only a couple hours anyways. When I got on the plane and got to my row, the row was full. I looked down at my ticket, and back up at the seat number. The woman in my seat asked, ‘Is this your seat?’ To which I replied, ‘I think so…’ Confused. I looked down at my ticket again. Then, the man next to her said, ‘Well, it’s your lucky day, youre flying in 1st class today!’ Apparently they couldnt both get into 1st, so he decided he would sit in coach with her and give up his ticket. I was in awe. Mostly because he was giving up his seat to sit with his lady companion, which I thought was the cutest thing ever. I made my way back to the front of the plane in disbelief. For being late, and with all that seat changing business I had just went through, this turned out pretty good.
I sat down in my seat, just trying to process it all. ‘So lucky’, I thought to myself.
You never know when the stars are gonna align and luck is gonna come your way. Show up for your work, for what you love, give it your all. And when the stars align, you will be happy you did. You’ll be ready to shine.
I still cant get it right? I am stuck in 12/09. Anyone else having a hard time remembering to write 2010 on things? Its kinda crazy right? The closing of a decade. I am also having a hard time saying that. Who really knows when all of everything really started. Who’s to say the beginning of the earth began with a ‘zero’. Doesn’t it makes more sense to just say, it started there, when whoever it was, decided to start keeping track of time. Somedays I wish i could watch the beginning of it all.
I was watching an episode of Planet Earth the other day, and there was this crazy bird that poofs out its feathers like a skirt and does this mating dance. The bird was incredible, hilarious actually. And I thought to myself, ‘Where did this thing come from? How did it evolve? Its so fascinating to me.
They say sooner or later the earth is gonna get to crowded, water will run out, our oceans will be polluted, food supplies poisoned, everything is headed down hill. I hear peers talking about how they don’t want kids, because they don’t want to leave this big ‘mess’ for their children to clean up. I try not to get discouraged, Ive wanted kids since I was 24. I like to look at it in that our children are our only hope. We have this chance to raise a person into the world, and teach it how to constantly vibrate change and hope. I totally believe we can reverse this whole thing. But you never know what might happen. The whole world could dissipate into a cloud tomorrow.
Today, I ate everything. God, I ate the weirdest things!! I have been feeling a bit sick too, with a little cold. I usually never have an appetite when I’m sick, but today I ate so random. This morning I made breakfast potatoes with onions, rosemary, and olive oil. Then I made an acai smoothie with blueberries, bee pollen, vitamineral green, earth, maca, hemp milk and goji berry juice. Then my man cake brought over some soup and a vegan carrot cake muffin thing. So I ate the soup with some toast and earth balance and half the carrot cake thing. I was still kinda hungry. I nibbled on baby corn and some fava beans. Later on my roomie came home and had this delicious vegan polenta lasagna that she got from the dinner party she went to. I picked at that for a quick minute, and then we went to the movies. There I had some popcorn. When we got home I had a craving for hot cocoa, so I made some mexican hot cocoa, with hemp milk, cinnamon, cayenne, agave, and cocoa powder. Then I had some rice crispy treat, some chocolate, and then a cracker with some cheese on it. And, Im not even stoned. I swear.
Tricia is in the other room organizing her things, she leaves for India in a couple days. She has hardly anything, its pretty inspiring. She has only key things she needs for India, they all fit into a backpackers backpack, and then only 3 bins of items that she is keeping in storage. I look around my house, at all this ‘stuff’ i’ve acquired. That I’ve justified buying, needing, even plain and simple, wanting. Im not sure what it means, some of the stuff means the world to me. Like the picture of my grandma from the navy, the art pieces that my dad has made from scratch, the old clocks from my grandfather, vintage jewelry that I’ve bought at numerous antique stores on the road. Then there are things like clothes, shoes, furniture, I am just kinda like ahh…these things. Over the coarse of the last couple months, I have been tossing a lot. Taking tons of stuff to goodwill. I feel like i’m cleaning out my life, like I am getting ready to go somewhere. I’m not even sure if its a ‘physically’ going somewhere, or just making room for where I’m going spiritually in life, in my head, with my thoughts.
But the more I look around, I am noticing that the things that are left, that I’ve kept, are all really special to me. My parents still to this day, keep everything, let nothing go to waste, so I think I get my pack rack ways from them. But really when I look around, I realize I am eliminating the clutter, the things that take away from the things that really make me happy and continuously inspire me. It makes me want to keep eliminating, until there is nothing but great space and memories of good time and great people. I like that.
At the same time, I am finding that I am not super attached to a lot of these things and that feels good. By letting go of the things that are no longer of use to me. I realize that I dont even miss them, which makes me realize, though I’d probably be pretty heart broken, if I ever lost the things that mean the world to me, I would be able to move forward and start from scratch, no problem. At the end of the day, if you are good with yourself, you are good. Period.