Last week in Los Angeles I participated in a live Q&A as part of an ASCAP expo on songwriting. When the topic of Twitter came up, I explained my waning interest in it being part of my daily life. By no means do I think it’s over as a medium altogether, but I do think that the days of “Twitter: The…
I was standing right next to you backstage before your panel, but for some reason couldnt bring myself to say anything to you..I ate a cupcake instead.
Back in 2006 I did a tour in Japan with Jenn Lowe and Jesse Harris…
It was one of my most favorite tours of all time…
Me on guitar, Jenn on percussion, and Jesse on guitar and banjo…
This song just came on my shuffle…One of the first love songs I ever wrote, for someone who has been a constant muse for a lot of my material…Hearing it makes me want to write a hundred of these songs, they are my favorite!
Such a dreamy song…So dreamy..I thought I would share :)
I can ride my bike to my friends house, enjoy delicious home made sliders, catch a glimpse of the new Discovery channel series: Life, and hang with my friend and her pup pups.
I dont like to bike at night by myself, I make up that its dangerous, dark and spooky out there. However, tonight something changed. Ive biked at night, I have a light. And I have my bright white Lululemon hoodie pulled way over my helmet, making me a human reflector more or less. I was no longer scared.
With my headphones on low, and KCRW streaming groovy tunes from my iphone. I might never get in my car again. Something about being out in the open, cruising through town, the smells of lavender and iceplant fill the air. Sprinklers hiss in the distant, as cars zoom by. The asphalt steady and supportive, as I make my way home.
Biking, reminds me of when i learned how to surf. I knew I loved it from the get-go, but with every paddle out, I would fall in love even harder. Everytime I get on my bike, i feel like the world is my playground. No distance seems to far, no place seems untouchable. I like that….
Home in one piece, I am whipping up the basil lime gelato that I have been meaning to make for the last 2 years…its looking good. It’ll be ready in 14 minutes!
Written in my bathroom, in nude color lipstick across the mirror, reads “You are all the worlds love”. The quote came to me one day, and I chose to write it on my mirror as a daily reminder to myself that the love in the world, the attitude we carry, the energy we share and pass on to others, always, starts and ends with us.
Today I woke up to not 1, but 2 beautiful emails from an amazing lovable, snuggable human… and 5 text messages from my auntie, my friend coming back from a weekend in DC with her son, my super babe bike riding friend, a newly reconnected singer babe friend and one of my best friends of over 10 years. One called to say hi, one to see if i was around for a walk? one to see if i was around for a bike ride, one to plan a beach day in May and write some music, and one just called to say i love you…(insert that groovy song here, you know the one I’m talking about)
That is a whole lotta love first thing in the morning. When i read the message on my mirror, i couldn’t help but laugh.
I realized that this sort of thing happens all the time, I am a part of a community so full of love, so in tune, so supportive and excited for each other. It never stops…It’s this way, cause we have made it so.
I am all the worlds love, yes…but that’s cause I have the most amazing love surrounding me.
Matuse is an amazing wetsuit company out of San Diego.
Matuse makes wetsuits from geoprene.
Geoprene is derived from limestone.
Many wetsuits are made from neoprene.
Neoprene is petroleum based.
Neoprene is ”messy, it’s hazardous-it goops up sea otters.”
Matuse makes one of the best wetsuits on the market, and lucky for me, they also happen to be my good friends.
Ive never owned a wetsuit so warm, so light, so stretchy that also fits amazing. Before they had womans suits, I woud rock the mens suits, and you couldnt even tell. The suits are incredible. They comform to you, hug you and because of the rubber, they dont have to be as thick, yet they still maintain an insanely cozy amount of warmth, while letting you move around easily.
Dedicated to achieving the synergy between art+function, I present to you: Matuse
Check em out!
And in the mean time, check out my contribution to the Spring 2010 photo shoot below :)
When I signed with Virgin records back in 2004, it was a pretty crazy time. It had only been about 8 months since I had decided to make playing music my number 1. I had been on a couple tours, played a couple coffee shops, and played the Belly Up Tavern more than any of the 2 combined. The Belly Up was where I got my start. I love that place so much. I want to eat it and snuggle it.
I made friends with the booking agent, played battle of the bands, eventually opening up for national acts that came through town…and then one day, I got the call to go on tour with G. Love & Sauce. I’ll never forget that call, I was driving home from a show in San Francisco. The Hotel Utah. What a terrible show.
No one there + loud bar = “Why am I doing this again?”
Ring, Ring…It was my manager/friend that was helping me out at the time…, “We just got a call..You want to go on tour with G. Love?”. Hell yes I did.
That was the start…with the help of my most amazing brother (who has been with me from the beginning, our manager for many a tours since, and maybe the only person that can get me out of bed in time, when we are departing at 7am) we set out in our little Hyundai roller skate of a car, and made our way in a zig zag pattern across the US. It was an exciting time. I hadnt been anywhere in the US, besides Las Vegas and Hawaii. The first show, was great. Loud but great, and I sold about 50 CDs that first night. Night 2 with the same CD sales. G. Loves manager was out on the road with them, and that quickly got his attention. He finally watched my show the 3rd nigt.
Even though I was playing music, I had never intended on it being a career. But I figured, it felt pretty good. It made me happy. It was exciting. I was seeing the world. selling my music. That all sounded pretty good to me…
G. Loves manager at the time was looking to take on other acts, and he approached me. At the time, my friend was helping me out, and I was looking to take it to the next level. So with my gut in my heart, I made the leap. We agreed to do a 6 month trial, to test out the waters, if it didnt work out I could go back to my friend that was helping me. No pressure.
Within 4 months I had a booking agent, an accountant, a lawyer and a record deal. Whoa. Crazy.
My parents at some point before this, had come to a show, and basically said something along the lines of, “You look so happy, you should do this, you can always go back to school.” And so off I went. At the time, I wanted to be a sales rep in the surf industry. What did I have to loose?
Before I knew it, I was on my way to New York City, in the middle of January..I didnt really even know what a jacket was. I grew up in San Diego. I was leaving the love of my life for the first time, it was intense. I remember the first night in the hotel room, room 502, I wrote “Simple As It Should Be”. I missed my love. But I know it was all simple. Perfect. No matter what the challenge. We would be alright.
Making that first record was nuts. I was like a fish out of water. Bright eyed and googly the whole time. A world of firsts. It was brilliant. I had so much fun. I was in awe of everything. In awe of the band, the studio, that it was me all this fuss was about. It was strange. But amazing. I couldnt believe it.
Looking back. I def just dove right into music. I never asked for much help. I just kinda would approach a situation like I do cooking…I have these things, this is what Im gonna make, I dont have a recipe to follow… I guess i’ll improvise! Sometimes it would turn out a mess. Sometimes it would feel like i was feeling my way through the dark. But mostly, if I just believed in myself, It would all turn out edible.
I have been through ups and downs. I am sure to experience many more. But instead of fearing them, I welcome them. I embrace them, its all part of the process.
I consider myself pretty lucky, there a zillion other people out there, talented, hungry, intelligent, attractive, motivated. And I seemed to have landed myself in a good spot. I love what I do, and I am so ever, always, forever thankful that I get to do this with my life. I have been with my label for 6 years now.. That is just nuts to me. I havent sold a million records, YET. But they still keep me. (As they should, I am freaking awesome…) And even though, I have been through !!5!! A&R people and numerous amounts of ever changing staff, I still keep them.
I am getting ready for my 3rd record. Wow. If you would have told me this 10 years ago, I would have been like, “Shut the front door!”…
Today, I got a call from my manager, “Well, our A&R(<—click for def. of A&R) is leaving…”
(I have already been through 2 A&R guys on this record, and we havent even made the record yet…this is nothing new to me. I have lost 2 teams of people on both records, in the middle of my record being released…)
I have been with this particular A&R for the last 4 or 5 months. He is amazing, young, he was assistant to my last A&R on my last record. But, he has decided that the music biz is not for him, hes getting out of the music biz all together.
Generally, I like to become friends with anyone on our team, so that it feels less like work and more like Im working with people I actually know…This usually means, instant messenger, facebook, twitter, emailing, etc…My guy has become a friend, and just when I started to actually get to know him..He is leaving…
When my manager called and told me the news, I just laughed…Mostly because I was thinking to myself, “Is there even any more A&R guys left over there anymore?” I mean who is left? (I found out. There are 2 left).
I immediately instant messaged my A&R guy…
He thought I was going to be upset….
But I totally get it, and I support him, and respect him.
He needs a change, he wants a change of pace. Moving out of NYC, back to a more mellow way of life, with him and his lady…thinking about the future. I love it.
I have never been so excited for someone. It actually made me happy, despite, how much we have gotten done this far in my record making process, despite how much I have enjoyed getting to know him, getting his imput. I am really truely so ecstatic, because he recognized this change, him and his lady decided it was best, it was gonna make him happy, and so he went with it. He followed through on it, he did what was best for him…
If you are not happy in your true self, you will mostly like drag down all aspects of your life because of it.
I truely believe, we can all be doing what we love. Loving what we do. Following our dreams. The sooner you straighten it out, the better.
I told my guy not to worry about me, I told him…”Hey, I am gonna make an insane record..and you will be apart of it, even if its just for this little bit..” He was psyched. He was so stoked that I was not upset with him..But truthfully, my most favorite thing ever, is watching people figure out what makes them the most happy…and then actually pursuing their happiness.
Today, I had a moment, where I was just overjoyed, I was truely excited for my A&R guy, he was making this life decision, that he knew would be the best decision for him.
It made me ask myself, “Do I love what I do? Am I happy?”
I am so freakin happy, I love playing music. I might have stumbled into it, I might have not planned on it. But, I can truely say, I enjoy it all. I enjoy the easy breezy moments where everything comes together, as much as i enjoy the most frustrating, annoying moments where I want to pull my hair out. I enjoy when I write a song, and someone says, “Yeah, its alright…”. To the moments at shows, where the whole room is singing my words back to me. I enjoy touring, I enjoying not knowing what keys my songs are in. I feel stupid sometimes that I dont know music theory, I never had a voice coach, I dont know how to play piano, I dont know how to work pro-tools..But whatever, I dont need to know any of that…I just need to know that this makes me, one of the most happiest people on the planet.
At the end of the day, I do not rely on my A&R man, or my record label, my manager, my fans, my friend or my family for my success or my happiness. Because I truly love what I do, and I am doing what I love. And I believe in myself. And that is success in its self, everything else…is just..well icing on the cake.
I AM, extremely grateful and thankful for the ongoing commitment, from my record label and manager, to me and me art. I am grateful and thankful, to the support from my fans, friends and family. I am soo ever thankful for the opportunity to share this with the world. I am so thankful for this next record. Overall, tonight, I am especially thankful.
And I want to thank you, for allowing my dream to unfold.
And I want to encourage you, to do what makes you happy. To make the jump, take the leap, if not now..then when?
Its never too late, sending you love on your journey-
I recently signed up for The Daily Love, daily email. Its a great way to start your day, get inspired and put you in the right mindset for receiving the daily offerings coming your way. ”The Daily Love aims to make you happy and the best part about being happy is sharing that happiness with others.” Check out an excerpt from todays mail:
"When we know love matters more than anything, and we know that nothing else REALLY matters, we move into the state of surrender. Surrender does not diminish our power, it enhances it."
My friend Leah makes these amazing personlized amulets!
They are made right here in Leucadia, with love, by Leah!
She gave me one a couple months back that is stamped, “Protect Tristan”
I think I have ordered one for every single woman in my life.
They make great presents for birthdays, mothers day, or just as a simple little reminder to your very best girlfriends that they are always in your thoughts and protected :) They can strung on leather too, for guys as well!
Last night, i recorded a song, for a benefit CD, that my friend is making. It had been some time since i had been in the studio. I knew it was gonna be a late night. I knew I had a early flight to Virginia this morning. Usually, I am all stressed before travels. For some reason I make up that I need a whole day to prepare before I leave somewhere. I need to tidy up the house, take the trash out, do the laundry, not pack my whole closet…But yesterday, I approached the whole situation differently, with more of a go with the flow attitude. Knowing I was gonna get everything done, that needed to be done. I told myself, “hey this time, you are not gonna panic and be in a rush to get everything you were meant to do on this earth done, before you leave for 5 days” Besides, I didnt have to bring a guitar, I didnt need to check bags. I printed my boarding pass and voila! I was off to the studio. I welcomed my late night recording session with loving arms, figuring, “Even if I dont go to bed, I can sleep on the plane!” It doesnt matter!
In the mean time, I had actually been stressing about something else. My voice has been a bit funny lately, my upper register goes in and out like a old radio. I keep thinking, where did it go, those breathy high notes I know and love so much. I have been writing so much and singing, and I have been noticing it more and more. I asked my friend if he had any recommendations for vocal coaches, he replied with, “Are you doing your vocal warm ups?” To which I replied instantly, “No….Im not..” Im not on tour though, so… WRONG. Wrong Answer. If you want to stay in shape, you have to work out consistently! This I now know, applies to my voice as well as my booty.
So like a good artist, I did my warm ups on the way over, and I visualized myself singing my buns off, in perfect key, not even necessarily perfect, perfect. But, perfectly carefree and relaxed. Without tension, in the most perfect way for our lovely friends CD.
My friend that was recording me, has been known to make me nervous in the past, seems I can never bust out my shiz in front of him when it comes to sharing music. But ya know what? That was the old me, and those are old thoughts. They no longer serve me. I know what I am capable of. I know I can deliver. And you know what else? I belted out that song in 1 take. Bow chica bow wow. I believed in myself, he believed in me. But believing in yourself, is really all that matters.
It made me realize, that our fears, what intimidates us, what keeps us from achieving our most amazing potential…are all things WE create ourselves. Most of the time they dont even have anything to do with anything, we just make stuff up in our head. Is this the kind of company you want to keep? Quite frankly, I prefer to have awesome, supportive, love bubbly ooey gooey goodness company. I prefer to feed my body yummy food when its hungry, I prefer to bend it daily in yoga, I prefer to sing in the most carefree voice that I have inside of me. I prefer to shine and be confident and lead by example, by love and ackowledge my peers on a minute to minute basis. And most importanly, I found, the moment you start acknowledging yourself for all the things you are worthy of, the rain does come, and it surely does pour.
Its been almost a year long process. Re-wiring the way I think about life, and what Im worth. I have always suspected this awesome way of life, i dabbled in it here and there, but now I have also found a community of people, who are tuned into it as well. Making the magic multiply by the zillions.
A lot of people say to me, “Man it must be nice to live in San Diego, and do Yoga, and go surfing and eat Acai bowls and hang out”. It sounds like a vacation to most people, but this is my life, and yes, it is like vacation, cause I choose it to be like a vacation. And I also work real hard, and I stay focused, focused on being on a really super sweet full time vacation.
You see life, doesnt have to be hard, it doesnt have to be easy, it can be whatever you want it to be, and so it will.
These past weeks have been truely, amazing. Like more amazing than anything I could have ever dreamed up. I can hardly believe it. I visualized the most absurd amazing, simple things. I imagined love, and trust and transformation. I imagined laughter and silliness. I imaged new songs and great experiences. I imagined amazing company and new friends. I imagined clarity and peace. I imagined warm weather and bare feet. And phone calls and conversations out of the blue. I imagined my life amazing, and beautiful and rad. And it came times a bazillion.
And so even as I sit here, 3 1/2 hours delayed, in the Chicago O’Hare airport, en route to Virginia. I am not even the least bit bothered. Its exactly how its supposed to be, its perfect. And its a reason to have a beer, and have a blog, and talk a stroll around….
And besides, if this didnt happen, I wouldnt have met Ken from Tampa who is, as i type this, buying the bar shots of Jameson and is on his 3rd beer, because he has had 3 delays today.