I went to bed pretty early last night, and woke up at about 5:15 this morning. I laid in bed, wondering why ive been waking up feeling a bit congested, a bit blah, grey, etc… Could it be the heater? Not enough fresh air? Dust? Dust? Anybody, no…Dust? Mold? I laid in bed, wanting to get up to blow my nose, but too lazy. Maybe if i just laid there on my back, the runniness would stay put, and eventually evaporate. As I grew more awake, I turned to my side, grabbed my iphone and started researching air cleaners. After visiting several web pages, I asked myself if an air cleaner was really what I needed? Maybe I just need to give the home a good scrub? Or maybe Im just turning into a hypochondriac.
By then it was a little after 6. I decided a little yoga was in order. I got up, put on my lululemon uniform, brushed my teeth and headed down stairs to make some Mate. Right on time, I hopped in my car and headed to the Tropics. On the way, I was a bit lethargic…I thought to myself, its just an hour and then it will be over and you will feel great for the rest of the day! Then I caught myself, You’re already ready for it to be over!? You should be looking forward to enjoying every minute of it and giving it your best :) I tend to do this a lot as of late. I guess Im just thankful I catch myself.
Most of the time I am always late, or in a rush, or…no, there is no ‘or’. Its usually one or the other. But this morning, I was cruising. No rush. Not running late. It felt great. Yoga in the morning is pretty epic. I signed in for class, and said hello to Margaret the owner. She congratulated me on the show I played in town a couple weeks ago. I took a minute to acknowledge this amazing community I am a part of, I love that everyone knows each other, everyone supports each other. Its really nice. So is a compliment that early in the morning! I was already on my way to feeling better.
Yoga Tropics is a Hatha Vinyasa practice, which means you’re constantly moving, breathing, flowing. The class is 60 minutes, and heated. The flow is the same each time, which I personally like. I like knowing what Im getting myself into, I like looking forward to/visualizing pushing myself in certain postures. This time last year, I had just started my yoga practice. I always thought I didn’t have enough patience. I thought it was boring, too slow. For whatever reason, not for me. Wow. What a difference a year makes! I can touch my toes!
Class began, ‘Welcome to Yoga Tropics, lets begin by laying on your mats in child pose…’ Immediately I recognized Margaret’s voice. Its not all the time you get to take a class taught by the owner. But when I do, I always feel like its such a treat. I push myself a little harder, and I really make sure I give my all. Not to say I don’t normally do this, but yes, I admit, sometimes I feel like Im just hanging out in a posture, like a wet noodle, not stretching or pushing myself to my full potential. I think they call this lazy? Nonetheless, I felt super relaxed, balanced, in tune with my breath. A little soar through the first couple poses, but as I warmed up, I started feeling great.
I remember last December when I started practicing yoga. I had just broken up with my boyfriend, I had been spending a lot of time in LA. And if the relationship was a house. I wanted to clean it all out. I wanted to toss everything, and start from scratch. I was pretty burnt out on music. I decided to just leave that over in the corner for a minute and go back to the source. First things first, I changed my diet. I Leaned towards vegan, but didn’t give up fish. A couple weeks of this and I felt amazing. I’ve always leaned toward a vegetarian diet, so this was pretty easy for me. I think its important to listen to your body though, it will tell you what you need. I did ready the book Skinny Bitch. That was the icing on the cake for me. After diet, came exercise. Ive always been pretty active. Growing up surfing and all, walking with my parents and friends. Ive been training with a trainer for almost 5 years now, but over time, I realized how inflexible I am. Being strong is great and all, but if you cant bend, you’re gonna be nothing more than a strong stick. Stretching is uber important, insert my lazy ways here, I cant count the times I’ve stretched before working out on 2 hands.
I’ll never forget running into my friends little brother on Halloween night. He was on our surf team, he was always little, scrawny, cute. But now, here he was..tall, fit and looking like a hot young man. I was like wow. WOW!!! ‘What the heck happened to you, you are all grown up!?’ To which he replied, ‘I started doing hot yoga for an injury’. ‘Oooooooh….’. He leaned in and in a low sexy whisper like voice(i like to remember it like this..wink) said, ‘its heated so it gets you flexible….twice as fast’. I was sold. I picked my jaw up off the ground and the next day headed to the yoga studio. I never looked back.
Its been about a year in practice. I haven’t stuck to anything like this since I learned how to surf, or picked up a guitar. I think I always assumed that surfing and music were my 2 ‘things’, they went hand in hand. I didn’t know I would find something else. But im so glad I did. I guess its nice to know, that some of our best habits haven’t even found us yet. They’re out there, just waiting for us to come across them. I know if I ever decided to stop playing music for a living, I would love to get my yoga teacher training. I really love helping people recognize and acknowledge their full potential.
I was thinking about it, as I lay in Savasana, how special it is to take a class led by Margaret. She is an amazing woman. She has helped me recognize and believe in my potential. I love that. Then I started thinking about all the amazing woman I have in my life to look up to. I am truly blessed. For starters, my mom is the reason for the season, she’s one of the most beautiful goddess on planet earth -I hope you feel the same way about yours :) I have an insanely amazing group of girlfriends, some that I have known since i was 4, some that I just met 4 months ago. They range from 8 to 60. They are all beautiful. They help me recognize and believe in my potential as a human, as a friend, as a listener, as a hugger, as a singer, as a surfer, as a role model and as a woman.
I think one of the biggest ephinays I had this year (or maybe even this decade) is that we can do whatever we want. Whenever we want. And none of it matters. By saying to ourselves we are this, we are that, by labeling ourselves. We are really limiting ourselves. We can be anything and everything, or none of it. You can be the teacher, the student, or the kid that ditches class and smokes pot in the parking lot.
I love surfing, I love playing music, I love yoga. I like super green spiralina acai shakes and kelp noodles with green sauce. I love a good glass of wine and a rolled cigarette. I love pizza and chocolate, I like laying around in my pajamas all day. I like waking up early and going to check the waves. I love writing music and sitting in the living room creating tracks on garage band. I love drinking whiskey and dancing on tables and running around like a gypsy woman on acid at burning man. I love taking photos and dating and giving everyone a chance (just cause you go on a date, or go out on a limb, doesn’t meant you gotta get married tomorrow!) I love great conversations and stepping outside of my comfort zone. I love doing laundry and reading. I like laying by the fire and watching movies. I like cuddle time as much as I do my alone time. And somedays wake up and I want a burger and a beer and I LOVE THAT!
At the end of the day, I love it all.
I think what’s important here, is that we just do our best. Strive for a nice balance. Take it day by day, and remember to breath. Some days you are gonna make a less than great decision, but from those decisions we most definitely always realize something and learn a bit about ourselves. We are all beautiful, unique, and in bloom. We are constantly growing.
Its amazing to think back on the past year, and the past decade for that matter. 10 years ago I was just graduating highschool. I was still teaching myself how to play guitar, I hadnt barely sung in front of a single soul. I had never had a boyfriend, I had never been in love. I had never lived on my own. I wanted to be a clothing rep for Volcom. I had never been anywhere except Las Vegas, Mammoth and Mexico. Now 10 years later, Ive traveled all over the world, I make a living playing music, I live on my own. Ive been in love. I collect surfboards, and guitars. I love photography, I love doing laundry and I can do headstands! Wow…What a difference a decade makes.
My wish for you, for 2010. Do what makes you happy.
Acknowledging your surroundings, be apart of your community.
Branch out, get challenged, stay put, be content.
Do it all, be it all.
Do what makes you happy.
Whatever it may be. Enjoy yourself.
Happy New Year!
Its gonna be a great one :)
Thanks you all for your continued support! I am seriously having the time of my life.
Its been amazing being able to be this open and honest with everyone I know.
I have so much love and light for all of you.