How goes it? Greetings from the studio where I am hard at work on my new EP. Not sure the name of it yet, but have a couple ideas brewing. If you haven’t heard, I am headed out this fall for a 6 week tour with the amazing Eric Hutchinson. Tickets are available now! All the dates can be found on my website, along with ticket links! Just click >HERE!
The new EP will be available exclusively at the upcoming shows, and you know I will be hanging out at the merch booth after my set, to sign those babies right up for ya!
I’m so excited to be back on the road, a little lap around the US is always good for the soul right before the holidays. Its been about a bazillion degrees here in southern California, so I am hoping for some proper fall weather when we get to the east coast. I am still without a manager, and a record label, but I am totally rocking it. At times, my mind totally panics and I ask myself often if I have made the biggest mistake ever by parting with my manager of 9 years? Now that I am doing everything on my own, I see how much work there is to be done to keep the ship moving along. At the end of the day I don’t regret my decisions, in my gut, I know it was the right one. Like a lot of things in life, its hard to see it clearly in the moment, but at the end of the day, it all works out. I know I just have to trust my decisions, and believe its all unfolding perfectly. I will say, it has been very eye opening to be doing everything myself. I sort of always let my management handle things, I never really bothered learning the inner-workings of my business, so this has been a great opportunity for me. Working side by side with my booking agent, lawyer, accountant, booking our hotel rooms and bus for tour, working with a designer on merch, and the merch print company. Making an EP, doing the artwork for it, and getting those printed. Organizing band rehearsals, making sure all our gear will arrive on that first day of tour, all these little things I never had to deal with, I am learning how to get it all done. And holy shit! I am totally getting it all done, and I am not afraid of making a mistake, cause I know I am bound to make one. I have spent so much of the last 9 years, having people to lean on and a label and manager with opinions on how to do things, this has just been a really great way to connect back to my intuition, what my heart wants, what feels good, and make decisions based on that.
It reminds me of when I was first starting out. I’d sell my CD’s at the pizza shop where I worked, I would drop demos off at the Belly Up. I would make popsicle sticks with my website on them and pass them out at shows. I’d answer fan mail, send out CD’s with post it notes on them. So in a lot of ways its very old school. I guess just some days I wish I could clone myself. Seriously is it just me, or is it true that as you get older, there seems to be less hours in the day?
On top of all this: I got married!
It is still so surreal to say that out loud. Seriously have you heard my last album? How true it is what they say: Love comes knocking at your door when you least expect it. The day of the wedding, there was so much going on, hair and make up and the dress, and photos, and no matter how many times I kept telling myself, to slow down, look around, be present, breath it all in, looking back it feels like it just zipped by so fast! Of course, yes, I remember it, but it just all happened to fast. A couple things I do remember my inner lady babe saying:
“Yes, you deserve this. Every bit of this love. You have fought to be loved this way. You have known that you deserved to be loved this way, all along. In your heart you knew love like this existed, and even in times when love like this was so far away, you still dreamed it, you could taste it. And you didn’t stop believing in it, until it showed up at your door, and you finally felt it.”
The other thing I remember thinking was: “ Wow, if I had known that it would have all turned out like this? That all those heartbreaks, moments of sadness, anger, and frustration were all leading to THIS? I would have never worried about a thing.”
Reminds me of a quote by one of my favorite authors:
“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.”― Haruki Murakami
Sooooo…that brings us to here. Without further ado. I thought MY BLOG would be the only place, and best place to share our wedding video and wedding photos.
I can’t explain how surreal this all is for me. I have only ever sang about love. It’s one of the most complicated, most beautiful, most frustrating, most complex things on this planet. You guys have been there with me, every step of the way. It’s why I will always love you forever. And its why I will never stop writing. We have been through some amazing chapters of life together, and I am so excited to share this one with you.
I can’t wait to see what the future holds.
LOVE IS VERY. MUCH. ALIVE
ENJOY - XO